Okay so i dont know what it is, if its a mixture of hormones, or if it’s because we are back in europe and I now can get almost anything i miss from home. But im in a terrible terrible christmas spirit.
I cant wait for Dec. 1st, cus then I will light a candle each morning for breakfast, like my mother did. Go 2 the woods and find pinecones and make christmas decorations. Decorate the house. Eat all the good stuff u eat for christmas, and the all the days in the dec up untill it. Drink christmas tea, and when u come home from the cold weather outside, and the whole house smells like cookies and cinnamon. Light a million candles.. And the girls are getting bigger now, so i can pass all my traditions down. I cant wait, ive been fighting this christmas feeling for a long time now, BUT this cant possible be normal. It cant!
Im just so scared that I have it so bad now that i will be gone by the time christmas is actually here..
But i guess i gotta enjoy every moment for what it is, and dont worry i wont buy any christmas stuff till end of nov. I PROMISE.. Till then: Please allow me to be the first to wish you and your family a merry christmas!